I have found through my journey that when I am having my worst times. Those days when I would be eating out of control. When I would be starting every day with the words, “Today is going to be the day I do good” and by sometime soon into that day I will be re-negotiated with myself and committing to, “tomorrow I will start over again”!
Each new day making another new deal and truly wanting to believe it will happen and why not? Do I really need to gain any more weight? Do I really want to jeopardize my health and independence? Do I want to die? No, No, No and definitely No! Yet my clothes get tighter, my pain gets deeper, my legs get weaker and my breath gets shorter. I know then that I am in trouble. I have known along the way that I was in trouble.
I am having enough of a hard time with the battle, just to put two healthy meals together, do I really need any ones help, making me feel worse than I already do, about myself? Do I need a family member, a boss, a colleague, a producer, doctor, stranger or friend coming up to me and asking me or “telling” me that I have gained weight? DUH! I know all about it and I thank you for making (helping) me to feel even better about myself, than I do already! DO WE REALLY NEED THAT KIND OF HELP??
You know I have this theory and I will try to explain it in a short version (because some day it might be in a book form, I hope). Her goes, our disease (our struggle, battle, fight, problem, habit, call it whatever makes you feel comfortable), our disease feeds off negative energy. Whether it may be caused from depression, pressure, nerves, loneliness, anxiety, the past, the present, or the fears of the future, any kind of negative energy, both conscience or unconscious, and we will eat over it.
Each time we eat out of control, it is like those “old locomotives”, we feed the engine with more negative logs (reasons) to keep the “engine” (our) mouth going. We eat, we react to eating and then we eat more.
Then all we need is some one to really mean well (and sometimes not mean well) and try to tell us we have gained weight and maybe they can help!
BOOM!
More logs for that engine and then “FULL SPEED AHEAD”, and eating FRENZY!
I know about intervention and I agree that in the right way and done at the right time with the right set of circumstances it can be helpful but it is a delicate problem and needs delicate handling. The biggest intervention has to come first from within.
We know the people in our lives who are out there who will help us! HOWEVER, we have to make those moves toward them; we have to want to make those moves.
In order to want to help ourselves, and to help ourselves we must be in a POSITIVE state of mind, a positive place!
I f you are angry with yourself, if you hate yourself, then how can you be positive about you???
How can you go through the struggle ahead of you that day, if you do not like the person you are fighting for?
You need to support a positive atmosphere around you, within your life as much as possible.
How? Well, one way is to think about this.
You can hate the act (of overeating) but do not hate the actor.
You can possibly not be thrilled with the physical package when you look in a mirror but love the ingredients.
Do that first my friends and then dealing with the others in your life who say hurtful things will be a little easier. If you think about this…
In the scheme of things, the people who are upsetting you do not really matter! They are not there when you have to make the right choices. They are not with your 24/7 when you have to face your inner most self. Who are these people you give so much power too?
They may people who threaten to fire you, or not be your friend, maybe divorce you or never speak with you again, if, you do not lose weight.
Yet do they have the power to extend your life? Can they give you five or ten more years of living? I doubt it but guess what? You have that power!
You are the one that has to like yourself, and like yourself enough to where no matter what hits you, that it will not matter.
You are going to do well with your next choice!
Therefore the original question was “Do you need help to put yourself down?”
What is the answer? You should know the answer.
The answer is, “No one puts you down! You give no one that power!”
Take the power away from those who hurt you and then …
You have won one more battle!
Each battle we win helps with our personal WAR!
Take back the POWER, take back the CONTROL
Good luck my so” worth while”, “Brother and Sister in Battle”
Good luck my friend
Never give up and so you will never fail!
Love
Mike
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Depression
Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt alone? Have you ever felt as if you wanted to, just scream but for no particular reason. Besides, why bother, who would care or even hear you anyway? Does what seems to be the silliest little reason put you into tears? Does your bed or your living room ever seem like it is the easiest or safest place to deal with “today”?
Sound familiar? You may be depressed! I looked up in the dictionary and among many definitions on “depression”; I would like to share these few:
A depressed or sunken place- sadness; gloom; dejection. A condition of general emotion dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason
Suffering from depression or being depressed… in the past has been an embarrassment and almost like having some terrible social disease.
Times have changed and the time is now and is time to “Get over that”!
Depression is not something to be ashamed of nor is it something to be ignored and “shoved under the carpet”, with hopes it will go away on its own Depression is something that needs to be fought, on every level with everything you got!
This is a time in history, when we as human beings acknowledge whatever is not working and then do what is needed to be done and make it all work for the better!
There is nothing wrong with depression or being depressed except “Staying Depressed”!
I have dealt with depression on many levels throughout my battle and during my re-discovery.
All I do know is, depression is not pretty. It could be very painful, draining and at times destructive. Destructive meaning: non-productive; harmful to relationships; hurtful to oneself; and on many different levels.
In my particular case, I would often find myself asking…
“Do I overeat because I am depressed or “Am I depressed because I overeat”?
This is the “million dollar” question but either way the results of the overeating in the past have not been good for me.
That is why I and I hope anyone who reads this must be willing to take the “Bull by the horns”.
Recognize the enemy! Notice the signs and if you are depressed, then do whatever it may take to get yourself back on track.
I am no professional nor do I pretend to be one but I am a person who knows about depression. I have seen it in its ugliest states.
Besides, I personally like millions of human beings fight to stay positive. Sometimes you may be feeling a little blue and just a new hair do may be the “Pick you up” that you might need. Maybe a phone call to an old friend and a few laughs is just “What the doctor has ordered”.
Sometimes it may take a little more than just that. It may take some professional help…and why not? Are you not worth it? I ask you, is not your life working well, worth anything and everything? If you had a bad cold that you could not “shake” with some over-the-counter medication, you would look to a professional.
So, I ask, why not in this case too?
I know I would do anything, rather than be confined to a bed again for three years or homebound for fifteen years. If it means me admitting, I might need a little extra help and that I am not the one who can fix everything in the world and in my life. That I might need some help. Than let it be!
Depression is an ugly thing! Yet with work, it can be made better. Maybe it will not be cured forever, but for now, you do what you have to. Later, then you do what needs to be done, then too!
As long as you remember at all times, your life is meant to be lived, to the fullest and at the highest quality possible. You must remember that you do whatever needs to be done to make you smile inside your heart. To have peace, within your being.
You must make the effort, to get up out of that bed, if you physically can (so many of our friends physically cannot), get up out of that chair; open up that door or window, take a deep breathe and smile. Smile, then make some good healthy choices today and always remember these four simple but very important words….say them to yourself daily and as often as necessary during the day. Repeat them now…with meaning
I AM WORTH IT! One more time I AM WORTH IT!
Have a great day and do whatever you need to do to make this day, your day!
Love
Mike
Sound familiar? You may be depressed! I looked up in the dictionary and among many definitions on “depression”; I would like to share these few:
A depressed or sunken place- sadness; gloom; dejection. A condition of general emotion dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason
Suffering from depression or being depressed… in the past has been an embarrassment and almost like having some terrible social disease.
Times have changed and the time is now and is time to “Get over that”!
Depression is not something to be ashamed of nor is it something to be ignored and “shoved under the carpet”, with hopes it will go away on its own Depression is something that needs to be fought, on every level with everything you got!
This is a time in history, when we as human beings acknowledge whatever is not working and then do what is needed to be done and make it all work for the better!
There is nothing wrong with depression or being depressed except “Staying Depressed”!
I have dealt with depression on many levels throughout my battle and during my re-discovery.
All I do know is, depression is not pretty. It could be very painful, draining and at times destructive. Destructive meaning: non-productive; harmful to relationships; hurtful to oneself; and on many different levels.
In my particular case, I would often find myself asking…
“Do I overeat because I am depressed or “Am I depressed because I overeat”?
This is the “million dollar” question but either way the results of the overeating in the past have not been good for me.
That is why I and I hope anyone who reads this must be willing to take the “Bull by the horns”.
Recognize the enemy! Notice the signs and if you are depressed, then do whatever it may take to get yourself back on track.
I am no professional nor do I pretend to be one but I am a person who knows about depression. I have seen it in its ugliest states.
Besides, I personally like millions of human beings fight to stay positive. Sometimes you may be feeling a little blue and just a new hair do may be the “Pick you up” that you might need. Maybe a phone call to an old friend and a few laughs is just “What the doctor has ordered”.
Sometimes it may take a little more than just that. It may take some professional help…and why not? Are you not worth it? I ask you, is not your life working well, worth anything and everything? If you had a bad cold that you could not “shake” with some over-the-counter medication, you would look to a professional.
So, I ask, why not in this case too?
I know I would do anything, rather than be confined to a bed again for three years or homebound for fifteen years. If it means me admitting, I might need a little extra help and that I am not the one who can fix everything in the world and in my life. That I might need some help. Than let it be!
Depression is an ugly thing! Yet with work, it can be made better. Maybe it will not be cured forever, but for now, you do what you have to. Later, then you do what needs to be done, then too!
As long as you remember at all times, your life is meant to be lived, to the fullest and at the highest quality possible. You must remember that you do whatever needs to be done to make you smile inside your heart. To have peace, within your being.
You must make the effort, to get up out of that bed, if you physically can (so many of our friends physically cannot), get up out of that chair; open up that door or window, take a deep breathe and smile. Smile, then make some good healthy choices today and always remember these four simple but very important words….say them to yourself daily and as often as necessary during the day. Repeat them now…with meaning
I AM WORTH IT! One more time I AM WORTH IT!
Have a great day and do whatever you need to do to make this day, your day!
Love
Mike
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